Sunday, July 20, 2008
Hmmz...
haven been blogging for very very long...!
now suddenly feel like starting another blog..
erm...
to pour my unhappiness, my sorrows here...
n oso to note down my happy moments....
=)
love the blog skin..
coz really miss those childhood days with no troubles and so carefree..
wat we know is to play with our neighbours, frenz we made in kindergarden...
but now..
grow up le..
more n more responsibility..more things to think about..
more plannings to do for our future...etc...etc...etc...
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Back to now...
this moment of time...
I feel that i seem to lost my way...
lost my way of finding my future...
it seems that i no longer have any goals in life...
living aimlessly....
Wat is my future gng to be..?
i cant seem to see it....
just plain working...attend class...
but with no enthusiasm..n motivation...
nth..
like a robot..
programmed to do all this at a scheduled timing n so on...
i seem to lost alot of precious things along the way...
that i only just realised now...n it's too late..................
Miss those days in sec sch...
hanging out wit eliza, daphne...n gang...
poly days...with huiting, carol n gang...
n of coz Lips cafe pple...
nice working khakis...
but now...
we seem to b so "stranger"...everyone have their own lives......
sometimes i feel so unwanted in this world...feel so alone....
My bf..
been tog for 1yr plus...
everything seemed to have changed...
i guess it's just mi..
i dunno...
but...
i just feel tt the strong feeling doesn't seem to b there any more..
i guess is due to the less quality time tt we spent tog...
i miss the days where we can happily go have mac breakfast..
go office tog..go swimming on sat morning or afternoon...
slacking at home tog for the whole afternoon of sat...
sentosa with gerard n gang on sun morning...
now it's like...
we only can meet after 8pm on sat n sun....
it seems like... i'm attached but i feel i'm not...
i dunno for how long i can bear with this...
everyone in a r/s just wanna b with tt someone to spend quality time with them...on sat n sun...but for mi..?
i dunno...
i'm feeling sick n sianz n tiredz of everything...
i cant feel the happiness i once felt...
no more........
i seriously...
this is not the life i wan....
i wan back my life....................................
i wan back my old self.............
a happy go lucky self........
i hate who i m now.....
=(
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wish_you_were_here @ 2:23 PM
